It's either Do or Nothing...

Do or Nothing is one of the concepts in my life. I do not want to interfere this and i don't want to make any changes about it. All my decisions are very firm once it comes out from my mouth and i will do my best to keep it as it is. If i don't get the best of me, then i will rather don't mention about it or promise it. I seriously dislike imperfect thing because everything will seems to be impaired when one thing is not done as it is. It will turn ugly! When you give your best at something, i am sure the product that produce from your hard work will mean a lot to you or others as well. Such thing will be considered as perfect or near perfect when you are able to get everything done with your best. Let say if you can't get it done perfectly, i will suggest to you that scrape the whole thing and don't touch it anymore as you can't produce the best product. To me, it is either best or worst and there is no good or bad. If you have chosen to be the best, then go all out to give your best shot. If not, don't do anything and let everything happen before your eyes since you can't be the best so you must be the worst. There is nothing as 'in between' in my life. If you are unsure of your decision, make sure you confirm it before you voice it out. Don't be 50-50 because you will suffer from this. Don't argue if you can't deliver the best because nobody will care about you when you can't do it. You will be left rotten!

ISOLATED

All cramp up...

Why life is so frustrating, full of problems and not to mention challenges? I am so tired of all these but don't worry i am not thinking of suicide..lol... I know that suicide is not the way to solve any of the problem but a very dumb way instead. So, don't ever think that suicide can solve your problem...lol..

But why must we required to do so many things in one shot? Why can't we do it one by one and not to cramp up all of them in one time? No wonder there are plenty of cases out there reporting that many teenagers are suffering from a disease called "Emo" which can lead to suicide or hurting themselves. Even sometime i think of myself in this group of people but i did not have the suicide thought though. All the exams and project work just come together and we are ask to pass up the project in one week time while we have to sit for the 'intervensi' test. How are we going to do these two things together when both need a lot of attention? Why can't we pass up the project later or postpone the stupid exam?

Anyway, i think i am not focusing on both of them as both are causing so many troubles and i can't stand it anymore. I prefer to relax myself before the trial exam begin and not to give myself too much pressure by not expecting good results in every exams. I hope by doing so can help me calm myself down and prepare for another wave of exams. Meanwhile, i will most probably copy the project from my friends to finish it up in time and not to cause anymore troubles. I hope my friends won't let me down again by giving their 'stingy opinion'. I really hate these people....

NOT MUCH TIME LEFT!!!

Stingy Opinion...

Before i start to comment on this topic, i must warn you that some contains maybe offensive to some of you.

Ok..it all started with the class t-shirt and together with the class magazine page which i personally think are driving me up the wall. Before this, i can still accept with all the opinions voiced out during the class small meeting because they are still reasonable and acceptable. But when it comes until now, i have lost my hope on these two things as i don't really want to get involve in both of these things and not portraying myself in the class magazine page too. What angers me the most is the ****ing 'childhood photos' idea which my classmates decided to include them in the school magazine. This maybe sounds offensive but the truth is did you all really discuss the matter with the whole class? Do every single person in the class agree with this idea before implementing it? I can't fully blame you all because me too having some problems these previous days regarding to the Cooperative Day works. Most of the time i am not in the class last week to prepare for the 'day' and i wonder whether the class agree with the idea when i am not around or they suddenly go ahead with this LAME idea! If you all have discussed before this but make sure you all inform those who are not in the discussion before going ahead with the idea. Now, you all are urging me to pass up the photo when i am not even agree about this stupid idea! Can you all please stop pursuing me to do what i dislike doing? I am still a human with the rights to disagree and voice out my dissatisfaction towards this ****ing idea. Anyway, no matter what you all going to say about me, i am NOT going to hand out the photo. You all say what you want and i don't even give a damn about it. Well, do you call this a class with teamwork which i mention it in my post last time? I don't think so... You all don't even ask for opinions from everybody before doing it. Do you call this team spirit? I don't think so...Now all i can do is pray that the schooling days faster come to an end i can have my freedom. I have lost my hope in this class...

DISINTEGRATION!!!

Hari Koperasi...

Yesterday, my school held its Cooperative Day also know as "Hari Koperasi". It's a big day for my 'yellow buddies' and i as it is the day when we celebrate 'our day'. A few of the cooperative prefects (including me) came early in the morning to get everything done before the start of the morning assembly. We tied the banner on the third floor and that time we got almost everything crashed up because our cooperative leader Mr. Yap Park Leng forgotten how to tie the knot so he is trying his best to recall back his memory on how to tie the knot on the banner. Poor thing.. his whole shirt almost gone transparent (wet) because he was so nervous as the opening ceremony going to start soon and the tension build up. Somehow, he finally remember how to tie it and quickly has it done before we went downstairs to get ready for our speeches. All three of us (Park Leng, Zhen Wai and me) who were supposed to give the speech were so nervous and we tried to prepare ourselves mentally for it...lol..not that serious though.. After both of them gave their speeches, it's my turn to step on stage to give out my speech. I must tell you that the feeling at that time is so frightening when thousands of eyes are eyeing on you when you are giving your speech. Anyway, i just focus on my letter and finish it as quickly as possible. Phew...i have done it...

Next, we went back to Koperasi to sort out the muffins class by class ordered by students and teachers previously before distributing them. While we were doing our work, the teacher incharge of this kept on talking non-stop and told us that we cannot do this and that. Oh my gosh.. she is so fussy... I also starting to wonder why this school is full of fussy teachers. I don't think i need to mention their names, since most of you know who are them already. After finish packaging, we took some rest and walked around to see how is our business going. Maybe because of too boring, Fei Sin 'directed' a comedy in the Koperasi and i was laughing madly because of her jokes on somebody. We even played some funny and yet silly games...lol..After wasting so much time in there, it's time to go back and relax but Shurong, Fei Sin and me went out to have our lunch before returning back to school for our co-curricular activities. We were supposed to attend the activities but we were too busy playing basketball until we forgotten about the activities so we decided to skip it. Reached home and have a good nap...zzz...

HARI KOPERASI!!!

Tiring week...

Phew...after four days of staying back consecutively, i am so exhausted. During Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday, i stayed for ALK (Ahli Lembaga Koperasi) meeting, "treasure hunt" (a game organized by the Science and Mathematics Club) and Add Maths additional class respectively. After these three days of staying back, i thought today i can have a good rest finally but my prediction is wrong again. Even today i stayed back to have a farewell party for Pn. Fadilah since she is going to migrate to Sabah this week. This is a sad news because she is a very good teacher even though she never taught me before...lol...just my intuition say so. Anyway, we still held a mini farewell party for her at a nearby Pizza Hut fast food outlet. Among those who attended include Pn. Syarifah (our form teacher), Fei sin, Soue Jen (i hope didn't spell your name wrongly), Melanie, Kar Xian, Hon Lean, me and of course Pn. Fadilah. Before this, we planned to hold it at Carrefour but we changed our mind last minute to Pizza Hut. We went there right after the school has finished and both teachers drove us there. Thanks teachers! We settled down and ordered our meal. While waiting for the pizzas, we took pictures with both teachers. After everything is done, some of us went back home while Pn. Syarifah drove Kar Xian back to her house and me back to school. I reached home and just lied down and took a short nap before coming to this. At least today is Friday so tomorrow is Saturday which means i can rest for the whole day! Yippee! But not too long from now, exam is here again...haiz... I HATE EXAM!! It is so tiring...

VERY TIRED AR!!!

A school trip....

After so many weeks of planning, finally the trip to Planetarium and Petrosains was held successfully yesterday by the Electronic Club (including me). I was so happy about it that the trip went smoothly and without many glitches as everybody who went for the trip did not cause troubles for us. Thanks to all who attended the trip yesterday from all of us! I was also glad that the trip finally finish and i don't need to suffer from the words from Pn Cheah. She was so picky and 'mafan' (talk a lot) before the trip. I hope she don't comment lots on the trip yesterday. I am so scared of her 'talk a lot-ness'...(shiver)....

Well, we started our journey to Planetarium at about eight something after everybody have arrived except for one person. We reached there quite early and we were told that the Planetarium haven't open, so we decided to take a stroll at the nearby Mousedeer Park while waiting for the Planetarium to open. Oh, the Mousedeer Park has some very cute little mousedeers! However, the place where all the deers are kept is so stink. I can't stand the stench as it is so smelly (urine smell). We left the park and headed to the Planetarium. Halfway to there, some of my friends posed 'uniquely' for the photographs...lol... Finally, we reached the 'peak' after climbing a flight of stairs to the entrance. We went in and tested most of the small 'experiments'. It was so fun playing with all the stuffs as we were so curious about them. Besides having fun in there, we also got to learn something new from there. After about one and a half hour walking in there, we went back to the bus pick up point before we managed to take a group photo.

Next, we went to our second destination that is Petrosains which located in the Suria KLCC. Before we went into Petrosains, we have our lunch first while our president of the club went to buy the tickets (pity him...). Anyway, we finished our lunch and headed straight to the Petrosains since we have to enter the place at a given time stated in the ticket. After we were given some briefings and have our bags kept, we were all set to enter the place lead by a worker. I must admit that this place is better than Planetarium because it has more information and fun games. Maybe is the price different also...lol...We were given two hours to tour the place before we went out to have our free and easy session for 30 minutes. After that, we went back to school and the trip ended just like that... I want to say thank you again to all of you who had given commitment to me before and during the trip as well.

THANKS!!!

Study dilemma....

Today, my school organized a mini education fair and there were about 35-38 private colleges and universities participated in this program if i am not mistaken. I went to this fair quite early since we are having PJ that time. At that time, there were still a few colleges haven't completely set up their booths and some haven't even arrived. Anyway, my friends and i just went to some booths and have some information taken mostly about our future studies. They provide a lot of information but i think i can only nod my head just to 'layan' them since they non-stop talking about their benefits by studying at their institutions. However, i do appreciate the information provided by them because i got to know more about the path of study that i should to take after my SPM. There was another problem. There were so many choices and courses to take until i am so confuse now which is the best course i should take after form 5. Each course has its own specialty and benefits but i still wondering which one i should take. When there are choices, there will be problems when you can't make the right decision. You see, once again problem is created by human...haiz... There are many factors that you must consider before you confirm with your decision to prevent you from regretting. These factors are causing the problems now while i am making my decision as i need to take into consideration of all these problematic factors. One mistake and it will cause you to regret your whole life or maybe not that serious. Somehow, i hope i can make up my mind soon with the perfect decision. Making decision is so hard!!!

IN DILEMMA!!!

Bad results...

After two days of schooling for the second semester, we almost got back all of our exam papers except for Chemistry which i expect we will get it by tomorrow if our form and Chemistry teacher come tomorrow. I hope so because we are too eager to know our marks since this is the last subject but i think i won't get a good result for it...haiz... So far, the results of the other nine subjects are quite bad and disappointed especially ADD MATHS which i only got 43% for it...haiz... But anyway, i still have improvement from the previous exam which i able to gain only 40%. For this, i consider a good result too as i didn't give much expectation for this subject and is better than i expected before this which i consider myself to fail it. I think i really gave up this subject already since we probably won't have enough time to finish the whole form 5 syllabus because our Add Maths' teacher has been absent for about nine weeks. I don't blame her since she is suffering from some health problems and she really unable to make it to teach us. Meanwhile, the other subjects' results are not bad for me and i am quite satisfy with it but there is still one more subject that i will like to talk about, that is BIOLOGY. Our 'smart' teacher has marked our paper with so many mistakes that many of us are unhappy about it. Many of us asked her why we lost mark in certain question but she can't explain it properly. We all lost our hope on her as she even can't explain to us why we lost our marks. Now, all i can hope is that my Chemistry marks is enough for me. Hope so....

WORRYING!!!

Goodbye..Holiday....

After two weeks holidaying, i think it is time to bid farewell to 'it' since it is time for 'it' to leave us and i will miss 'it' very much. But before i say goodbye to 'it', i want to say thank you to 'it' for giving me so much fun and time to relax myself. These two weeks, i think i have all my needs done especially sleeping and have fun. Not to mention that all the things gone through these two weeks had made me felt better in the form of physically and emotionally as well. I enjoyed the time and happy about it too. I hope you all have fun and enjoy yourself these two weeks too. After all, all good things must come to end but i really wish it won't come to an end so soon since i can't find 'it' back until end of August if i am not mistaken. Anyway, that time i think most of us will be busy getting ready for SPM and we will most probably not enjoying the holiday we got. That's why i can hardly say goodbye to this holiday as 'it' has given me so much fun and sweet memories.

Tomorrow is the day we start our second semester. I am suppose there will be plenty of exams we have to sit through during this semester as SPM is approaching not long from now. There are still about 5 months time for us to prepare ourselves before the arrival of the 'D-day' and after that we will go our own way. But before we separate, i hope we can plan a very good trip to remember the time we had spend together all these years. By the way, we must first go through all the gruelling exams which are waiting ahead for us before we can enjoy the holiday. This will be gruesome though. Somehow, we can go through it easily if we unite together to fight against these exams by giving morale supports among ourselves. This is what a friendship for right? Lastly, i really really wish holiday can stay with us longer!!!

LONG LIVE THE HOLIDAY!!!!

Movies...

Hmm... I think until now, i still can't get enough of movies. I think i have turn into a movie-maniac since i really enjoy seeing movies especially in the cinema with all my friends. Today, is another day that i get to hang out with all my friends and of course, MOVIES!! Well, there are altogether 11 of us including myself went to Time Square today to have some movies there. This time we meet, i was so glad that my old pal, Wai Ming came along with us. He so "give face"..lol... Although he seems like so bored, i guess he too enjoy spending time with us since we so long didn't meet. I hope you really enjoy it. Anyway, Fei Sin our organizer for this outing had booked the tickets for the movie "Prom Night" and i expected this will be quite a good movie but i guess the movie still got room to improve especially the ending part of it. The story line of the movie is not bad but i really want to comment on the killing part - i think the psycho uses back the same way to kill all of his victims which make the movie quite boring though. I really wanted to see a different way of killing since they name he as a psycho right? Wow, i think this will be more horror and exciting to see.

Next is "Kungfu Panda". This movie had brought laughter even though it was still a trailer, so i expect this movie will sure be a hit among the youngsters who enjoy a good laugh. To my surprise, the movie really done its job to fill the whole cinema with laughter and humour. Everyone seem to enjoy seeing the movie since it is really funny and exciting too. I can assure you that you won't waste your money when you decided to see this movie because you can't find a boring part in it and all you can do is sit back and enjoy some laugh with some action pack in it. I will leave it to you to comment about it when you have seen it all by yourself. Well, i do manage to do a bit of shopping today by purchasing a piece of shirt from ROMP. The price of the shirt is reasonable which become a factor of buying to me. Argh.. the worst part of today is i need to walk from Sri Petaling LRT station all the way back to my home sweet home... it was so freaking tiring..

MOVIE MANIA!!!

Simplicity

Have you ever wonder why this world is full of troubles and problems? I think i will never find the answer for this weird question. Maybe i am still too young to discover the answer since i still have a long journey in my life to go through. There will be most probably many more troubles and problems waiting for me to solve it by myself for the rest of my life. I hope i have the strength to endure this walk of life with full of troubles and problems. Sometimes, i really wish that this world has less problems and the world become a much simpler place for us to live with. I really hope this world can be simple so i am able to live with joy without solving so many problems which lead to unhappiness. SIMPLE is the word that i like to imagine about but i don't think my imagination will ever happen. This world is just too many troubles to live with and i think that troubles are mainly caused by humans ourselves which we don't realise it when we done it. And now, why are we creating so many troubles? Why can't we just live in harmony and put away all the non-senses for the sake of happiness? We must think simple then, we can only achieve our dreams to live peacefully without any problems or troubles. Anyway, this is just my thought and i am not sure whether you all agree with me with me or not. I just want to express out my feelings towards this world. Holiday is coming to an end and all the dreams will come to end once the second semester started. Brace for the troubles and problems guys! We are going to go through it together!

MAKE IT SIMPLE!